My moments...

I have a friend (if you are reading this, you know who you are!) that when I was pregnant with Kolby, while sitting in her living room one day, I asked what it was like having multiple children. I mean what was I to expect? How hard was it? Did she regret having three kids? Was I actually crazy for wanting more than one? She replied that the best thing in life was listening to your children in the other room playing together and making each other laugh. I thought she was crazy, absolutely insane and assumed that this is what having multiple children did to you. I had already heard some of the worst stories about having two kids. People had told me how their older child wouldn't even talk to them when the new baby came home. I had heard how other moms couldn't figure out how to deal with 2 kids and how they had doubted themselves as mothers. I had heard it all and now someone I considered a great friend tells me it's the best thing in life. Yep, definitely CRAZY!! I put it aside and a few months later I had Kolby. Logan being extremely pissed off at me, check. Me not being able to split myself between 2 kids, check. Me feeling more out of control than ever, check. Me not knowing how to like Kolby, check. I mean I loved him, he was mine, but it sure wasn't that intense greater than life love at first sight. Me doubting myself as a mother, wondering what the hell I was thinking, check. Okay so I definitely went through some rough spots after Kolby was born, but I didn't know how much worse it was going to get. Nor did I actually know that the best moments were yet to come. I just fast forward here to the present, nearly 16 months since Kolby entered this family. My 2 boys are best friends and they love each other so darn much. They play together nonstop and they miss each other when they aren't together. And yes, there is nothing better than listening to the 2 of them from the other room or the front seat of my car laughing hysterically at each other. Not another moment in time could be better. And those moments when they are laughing with each other and playing so awesomely together can fix any other horrible moment. I mean don't get me wrong, they are hellians and they are rough and they can be so darn bad. And more times than not I feel like I am losing my mind and that I need some serious drugs. I feel like I am so out of control and I will never regain control of my house. I feel like I am talking to a wall and that I should be on some bizarre reality show. Life in my house can be hell, but then there are those moments when they are playing and laughing and life is perfect. I have started to think of those moments when I think what the hell was I thinking and it seems to ease the tension some. I also think that there even more awesome moments to come. I wouldn't trade these moments or the really great ones in the future for peace and quiet and control for anything. These are my moments to hold and to cherish. These are my moments that they will never know that they have given me until the day that they have their own kids. These are my moments and yes, my friend is not crazy she is perfectly sane and pretty darn awesome to realize how awesome having more than one kid is. I don't know why she didn't tell me the horrible aspects of having 2 kids that day. Maybe she knew I couldn't handle it. Maybe she knew just how bad times could get and she wanted to give me something to hold on for. I'm not sure, maybe I will never know. But I do know that her advice was the best advice I ever got. So thank you for being you and for giving me something to look for and to smile at.

Happy Halloween

The boys looked incredibly adorable as train conductors last night. As you can see from the picture they were matching right down to the red bandannas. The had a good time Trick O Treating. We went to about 10-12 houses. Eric pulled them in the red wagon and then when we were about 1/2 way up the driveway they would hop out and walk the rest of the way up. Kolby actually caught on pretty quickly. He would just follow Logan. The funniest thing was Kolby wouldn't carry his bad. He would grab it and then drag it up to the door behind him. When the people would go to put something in his bag he would turn around, drop his bag and follow Logan back to the red wagon. Too funny!

The Pledge of Allegiance

Logan surprised us today by saying the pledge. I must admit that we were rather shocked, I mean you would think that he would actually tell you that he could do this. Not Logan though, he has been able to do this for who knows how long and today I just asked if they said the pledge everyday. And Logan say "Yep, we even put our hands on our heart, just like this." And then he proceeded to say the entire pledge. WOW!!! He is learning an awful lot at school and it really is making me proud.

My Boys...

are getting so darn big. I don't have too many current photos of them together so we took advantage of the nice fall weather that we are having and went out to Pine Island and took some pictures. I got about 28 shots and maybe 5 of them turned out really well. I love a few of them more than the others, but overall I was really satisfied with the pictures. I wish there were several different places that I could take them to get photos, but there really isn't. They had a lot of fun running around and I can't believe how they always seem to run in a different direction from each other. I bet half of the pictures that I took actually only have one of them and then half of the other. This picture here is one of my favorites and actually wasn't posed. They were staring at the rocks and birds and the lack of water due to low winter tide. They just look really cute in this picture, even though you can't see their faces. Guess it is an artistic picture. Overall it was a good way to spend an hour and then we came home and made cookies.

Cookies were a whole different story. They also took about an hour or so and they were a mess. Logan had fun and that should be enough for me, but I really hate baking and he makes me so aggravated when we bake. He can't keep his little hands still and he has to do everything and I know that it is normal for his age and that I should enjoy it, but I don't. Anyways, I did the mom thing and we dyed the cookie dough to match the pumpkins and black cat and bat. So we have orange pumpkins with orange sugar sprinkles and then black cats with black sugar sprinkles and then finally black bats with purple sugar sprinkles. Tomorrow we are making white ghost and we are icing them and who knows what kind of sprinkles they will get. I guess what is important is that Logan had fun and he doesn't know how much I dread making cookies. Now when Christmas comes and we make chocolate covered pretzels and Oreos, I have a grand time. I love making that kind of stuff with him, it just baking cookies that drives me nuts. Oh well, we did and we'll do it again and again. As for now I need to go and make dinner so then I can go to work. JOY, JOY, JOY!

Kolby's Thing...

So painting is definitely Kolby's thing. After the pumpkin patch and grocery shopping we came home and let the kids at it. Logan actually likes to paint a whole lot and really gets into it, but he is really neat and worries about making a mess. And he definitely doesn't get the paint on him. Kolby on the other hand loves to paint and doesn't give a hoot about making a mess. He just got the brush and stamps and went at it. The whole kitchen floor was painted up, but who cares it came right off. What matters is that he had a great time and he was really creative. He also likes body art as you can see from the photo. He gets it all over himself and doesn't care. He actually paints himself with the brush or his hands doesn't matter to him. I love that he is so carefree when he is painting. It means that he is using his creative side and gets in the zone. Maybe, just maybe, one of my kids pulled some creative jeans from me. Anyways, just wanted to share what Kolby is doing these days.

Pumpkin Patches, Pumpkin Smashing...

Now just try and tell me Logan isn't having a "SMASHING" good time. We went to the pumpkin patch this morning and got some cute pictures, but none that rival this one. I am not sure how I got such an awesome shot of him hitting the pumpkin, but it is really cool. The face, the legs, the bat hitting the pumpkin just right. Okay so he didn't really do anything to the pumpkin, but if I didn't tell you and you weren't there you wouldn't know any better. It looks like he beat the crap out of that pumpkin. Kolby & Logan also played in the patch a bit and then Logan went and rode the pony. I hope those pictures came out cute, but they are on my mom's camera and I won't see them for a while I am sure. Logan also went to the bounce house and jumped around for a bit. That is always his favorite thing to do. I guess that explains why he is so skinny. Kolby on the other hand got hot, made us take off his shirt and pitched a fit like normal. Outside in the heat is just not his thing, KWIM? Take a look at my next post to see what Kolby's thing is...

Kolby's 1st Haircut

Today Kolby got his first real haircut. I am so happy with how it turned out. The lady did a great job. She layered up the back like a little boy's hair should be, trimmed over his ears, and evened up the top. He looks so darn cute. I am a little sad to see the baby curls go away, but I have a feeling that his hair is just going to have some curl to it so maybe we will see them again. I am also a little sad because now he looks like such a big boy and I can't stand it. I mean I know he's not a baby anymore, but knowing that he is my last I wanted him to stay little forever. I guess we don't always get what we want.